I could get a copy of the original “White Box” Dungeons & Dragons set, although not an actual first print run copy, because those go for $20k. But I’d probably buy the last few Planescape products I’m missing, which are also unreasonably expensive for rpg books but not in the same league as the original dnd sets, and much more enjoyable to read.

Northern Exposure is an amazing and very gentle show, if you can handle 90s tv.

Life, uh, finds a way.

It’s not something you need to get rid of, but if you really want to move past it the best way is to actually explore it psychologically. You say you like humiliation play because you love feeling like you’re worthless. Makes sense, sure, but why? What is it about feeling worthless that feels good?

Is it genuine worry in real life that you can safely explore in a sexual fantasy? Do you feel sometimes inadequate but can’t talk to friends openly about it, so having someone attractive criticise you but still not leave you relieves a fundamental rejection anxiety?

Is it that part of you is arrogant and looks down on some others as losers, but you don’t consciously approve of that behaviour, so the kink lets you ‘play the victim’ and feel better about your elitism?

If you spend a bit of time actually confronting the deeper thoughts behind a kink, it can remove a bit of the forbidden tension, and leave it as something you can still enjoy if you want, or move beyond, or find a more acceptable form that still presses the same buttons. Or just find a girlfriend who’s into it!

If we’re just talking “don’t worry about money day to day” then I’m that, but that’s more about being a couple who both work with low expenses (no kids). I never really think about how much money I have in my account, or worry about bills or rent or anything. I can’t afford to buy super expensive stuff all the time, but it doesn’t feel like a hardship to not buy the latest flagship or constantly upgrade stuff, and if I do want something I just get it.

Not stressing about money is fucking amazing, ngl. It creates this relaxed sense of calm, even when things are difficult. I certainly didn’t always feel like this, I’ve been unemployed, and so broke that I’ve been starving and wandering the street in the hope to find a coin that someone dropped so I could buy something to eat. When you don’t have enough money everything is difficult and any new crises is anxiety inducing.

Now, if something goes wrong while travelling, I just book into a hotel, while before I’ve had to sleep rough because I missed a flight and couldn’t afford a room. I never worry about the price of a restaurant or how overpriced a drink is (partly because I rarely eat / drink out so it’s not a big expense) . But that attitude of not having to check prices, or order the cheapest options, is so liberating. I think people who’ve never been poor have no idea how exhausting and stressful it is to constantly be on your guard and how feeling guilty about the cost can even ruin the enjoyment of the treats you do allow yourself.